You know the feeling when EVERYTHING just decides to happen to you all at once? I feel that everyday for almost 3 weeks now. Life changing things. I don't mean to be a fucking "emo" person all the time now. I'm never like this. But I got to put my words somewhere, right?
Well, a lot of things happened to me all at once. My dad losing his job to a call he has no control over. It was a nationwide company decision. This affected me. It's just weird to hear since he's been working there all my life. It's nuts to see how many people can lose a career that easily. Nationwide, people lost their jobs. It's not cool. It sucks to see him down. If you ever met my dad, you'd know what I mean.
My promotion. Pretty stoked on this, but I guess a lot just happened all at once. At some points, it's too much. But it's cool. It's a new experience, & it's something good to have under my belt for the future. But overall, it's a cool feeling. More hours, more money. Easier to save money & to spend it. A lot of stressful times still. Just got to get used to it.
& everyone probably knows what else. All at the same time. Talk about having everything on your mind, the world on your shoulders. Nowhere to go. No one to be with. Actually feeling what "lonely" feels like. Everyone has had their share of "hard times" in their life, & this is definately a real one for me. I know it's real, because I never did live like this. Yeah, sure I still have a little fun. I still love chillin with the friends. I still laugh, & act how I usually act...but it's that little hole in the back of my mind with everything stuffed in it that's fucking me up. It sucks.
Words of advice coming from so many angles, but the only person who can make it happen is Me. I was so happy & satisfied with who was in my life & still am. Sure, I'll meet new people, but I don't think anyone can replace anybody who have impacted my life the most. No doubt. You know who you are, too. All of you do. Especially in the past 2 weeks, there were just a lot of bonding of the bros, haha. Male bonding & jamming. I definately needed that. I love you guys man! With everything happening to me right now, it's showing me who I really need in my life...permanently. I'm satisfied with who they are today, I just need one more person.
2 comments:
exactly man. you yourself are the master of your own destiny. it's not what's out there but what's in here <3 that counts man. we're all growing dude and this is just a stepping stone to better things. always keep your head up and stay positive. if you ever need anything bro... don't ever hesitate to ask.
and remember... we're all alone... but never lonely. there is a difference. only you yourself can determine that.
and fuck yea dude. i feel what you mean about your words having to go somewhere. a lot of the things i write on here... i wouldn't even tell the closest of bros man. i don't even know how to. but it indeed has to go somewhere. here on the internet for the whole world to possibly read. haha. but nah... hopefully some random person will read it and take some inspiration from what we say. if anything... i know we all read each other's shit and that's enough.
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