Happiness

Happiness is the feeling of waking up early on your own time, knowing you have absolutely nothing to do today, but LIVE.

Happiness is the feeling of getting into a car with some of your closest friends & trying to get a CD player to work for 30 minutes.

Happiness is the feeling of being in a car with some of your closest friends & laughing about the dumb things that only WE would find funny.

Happiness is singing at the top of your lungs while playing air instruments to our favorite music.

Happiness is riding your skateboard.

Happiness is having a real good conversation amongst ourselves.

Happiness is eating lunch with some of your closest friends & reminiscing about high school. Nothing but laughter.

Happiness is sitting there with all your good friends, not saying a word, but you feel like smiling...just because.

Happiness is having adrenaline running through your body & having the feeling of excitement.

Happiness is live music.

Happiness is having someone there to open your eyes & change things.

Happiness is what this world needs.

Happiness is what I have.

Happiness is opening your eyes, heart, & mind to see what truly is making you happy.

Happiness is right now.

Go find it...













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Note from FB for Chayne Amaki to samps:

Tuesday June 29, 2010 11:56pm

TIME AWAY LETS YOU KNOW

Many of you may already know, but I've been up here in California for about a week now. I'm up here because my grandpa has been in a respiratory hospital for quite some time. I was supposed to fly up here about a month, but I didn't. My reason was I didn't want to see him like this. But the whole time, I was scared of living with regrets. At the time, I was dealing with a bunch of bullshit, too. Work was a very huge part of everything. Losing one of the greatest bosses I ever had, getting slammed with everything, being part of a 3-man management team, seeing coworkers at the brink of tears because of our situation, everything. For the first time in my life, I had moments of breakdown. For the first time, I was overwhelmed with stress. Real stress. Dealing with everything on my own was tough, but I had the right people there for me when I needed a good time.

So, I up & left to Cali. A one-way ticket. At first I was bummed. But now, I realized that I do live in the moment & that's exactly what I'm going to keep doing. When it's time to come home, it'll happen. I'm here for my grandpa & this is where I need to be.

Time away from home, work, & everything as opened my eyes to things & I'm going to attempt to put them into words, because I thought about these things everyday since I got on that plane. I think that everyone needs time away from everything at one point in there lives. It's good for you. You're going to miss a lot of things, but you just have to deal with it because it's what you need. I've learned what I want & need. I've learned the true meaning of being content with your life. Most importantly, I learned the true meaning of family & love. It took me 20 years to learn this. Sure, we all had those moments when we were younger where we hated our parents, your family. Some maybe even said some cruel things, did some cruel things, or even wished the worst upon them. I know I did. But we're all growing up & our minds are maturing. In this very moment of my life, I've learned that family is everything. They're there from the start, they're there to the very end, & they're there for everything in between. I haven't seen my mom in over a month before I came here. I realized how important she is to me. Even my dad. Dealing with everything by myself everyday, going home to an empty house every night made me notice these kinds of things. But I'm up here in California now. For my grandpa. But this trip has allowed me to spend some time with my dad & I never get the chance to do that. We're living life at it's purest right now. We barbecue & drink, listen to reggae music & dance, laugh, all kinds of great stuff. It's fun! That's how everyone should be with everyone who matters to them.

We've been driving out to LA every other day to see my grandpa. My first day there didn't go as I planned. Standing in his room, just looking at him with this tube in his throat, helping him breathe. That alone just tore me apart. He awoke & I went up to him to say hi & to let him know that I was there. All I got was this confused look & he drifted away. That alone made me feel empty, sad, upset. I ended up staying outside his room for the next couple hours. For the next few visits, he got better. He knows I'm there. He knows who I am. It's nice to see him functioning. Being here makes me feel that much better. It kills me to see him suffer. It kills me to leave his room & leaving him waiting until we come another day. But it's up to him to get better. He wants to come back home & it kills me to leave him there every single day we visit him.

But everything I've been put through from a couple months ago, to this very moment...I've learned so much about life & myself. Life, as in know who matters the most in life & hold onto them. Know who you can trust, know who you can love, know who you can feel content with for the rest of your being. I'm content now. Even with new people that I recently started chilling with before I left. There's some people who just click right in, & there's some people who you get along with, but it's not all there. You just have to be careful with people, just to avoid things you don't need in your life. There's a saying that I NEVER really believed in until a couple days ago, which tripped me out. That saying is "The best things in life are free." The best things in life really are free. You just have to open your eyes & your heart & live. Simple as that. I got promoted, I work 11 hours shifts almost everyday, I try to help out my coworkers as much as I can. I've been getting some great looking paychecks. But that's when I started realizing that I'm over money. I would give up a week of hard work/earning money, to just have one day out to just live, to just be amongst my friends. Just living is so much more valuable than money itself. Being up here away from everything/everyone is making me realize that even more. This evening, I sat outside the garage & watched the sunset. It not only made me think of everyone back home, but it made me feel light. It took the whole weight of the world off me & I could just relax & smile. Believe that the best things in life ARE free.

The love of your life is right there in front of your face...