How many of you can look in the mirror & honestly say you know who you are?

In life, we're all playing our own roles. Most of the time, we're playing roles & we don't even know it. We don't even recognize it. Many, many of us are still finding ourselves. Some are actually trying to find themselves, & some aren't. Which is fine, because it'll just unfold when it's time. Some probably don't even care. But finding yourself is one of the greatest things, because when you do, that'll be the day. The day where you can call yourself your own. You're not living for anybody else, but yourself. You're not living to please others, but yourself. You're not living to follow trends, but you're living to be who you are.

I can honestly say I know who I am. A very, very special friend had reassured that fact for me last night. The only person in the world that understands probably anything I tell him. On spiritual levels & such. We talked about everything & everyone. Made me look at things in so many different ways. His intelligence trips me out. But we talked about how we're all playing our own roles, which has always been a true fact & that we really are alone in all of this. It may not seem like it, but we just might be alone. I believe in part of that. You may have your best friend that you can honestly say you'll trust for the rest of your life, which is great. You may have the girlfriend you know that shares a newfound love with you & keeps you on your toes & inspires you, because I know I do. But you know, at some point in our lives, all you really have is yourself & that's exactly my point. The only person that has your back is yourself. Straight up. You can believe that when I say it, because I lived it. I had my point where I had my own back, for sure. Now that I'm passed it & things are clear & I know what I want/need, I'm ready to share my life with that special someone & I definitely am. Also, sharing it with others that matter. I'm ready to learn more & teach what I know. My whole "life trip" moment during my stay in California & all of that stuff that I got slammed with in life, I'm all thankful for it. That's when I found myself & that's how you do it. Sometimes, you have to leave your comfort zone. Alone. That's the only way. A big part of life is surrounding yourself with good people, & you'll learn that part on your own, also. It's all part of finding who you are. "...I can't be held back by anyone who doesn't benefit me. If they don't have anything interesting to say or anything that furthers my growth as a soul & human being... I really don't have any use for them in my life." Exactly. People are going to put you down, & people are going to help you grow. We all just have to believe in succeeding, respect, trust & most of all, believe in yourself. BE YOURSELF. It really is a feeling when you know you found yourself & you stopped living for others. That's when you sit back & look at everyone & realize how you were living. Seeing everyone live each other's lives while you're living yours. I'm not saying it's entirely wrong, but it's all part of life & becoming your own being. I just want others to know that. I can see who's living for themselves & who isn't. But it's all good. Everyone's time will come.

We're all destined to do different things, be in different places. I may not have a job at the moment, but I'm glad that I have some valuable knowledge for myself. Another thing is that happiness & ambition is what we need. Your mind really is the most powerful weapon you have. It'll take you anywhere, you just need some heart & dedication...you need the drive. That was another thing we talked about. The future, where we're all going with our lives. I've been thinking about that lately, too. Being that all us boys & friends, we rarely do what we used to, we rarely see each other. It's sad. But we're still who we are, & we're still bros. It's just, I think we really are doing what we're doing now & going our own paths. We just got to keep doing what we're doing, but keep in mind our bond will never change & believe in that. But the future is a scary thing, for me at least. But I got big plans. It may or may not better my future, but I know I want to do it so I will.

On Friday, I had another session to finish coloring in the bottom half of my arm. But as I was under the needle, Bo, the boss man at the shop, was talking to his client. They were talking about the simple things in life & jobs. He said that there is no middle class people. You're either rich or poor. He said "he's poor as fuck." But his exact words were: Dude, as long as you got food to put in your mouth, a roof over your head, some clothes to wear, slippers, board shorts, whatever! You're fucking good. Straight up, man. But in my eyes, if you believe in life that way...you are rich. He was saying how kids nowadays want every thing & I see that. The generation is different nowadays, & I honestly think that it'll never change. It'll just get worst. So, just be thankful for what you got because the simple things are the most valuable.

I guess my whole point here is not to change you & it's definitely not an attempt to do so. Just speaking my mind. For myself & myself only. Remember, your perspective makes your attitude. You just need time to yourself sometimes & reflect.

This is life. & it's some real shit.