Change Is Always The Subject

I know, I've probably wrote about "change" a thousand times. But change is good, sometimes bad, & sometimes hard to do. But a lot of things have been making me want to do change. Things I found out throughout this week gave me some what of a little push of determination or idea. But the root of it all is money, unfortunately. So, I've actually been a little more dedicated to finding something better. I've definitely been thinking about it everyday for quite sometime. I don't know about this Coach thing, though. Sounds awesome, but I just have a feeling. That's one of my problems as well. Thinking, & overanalyzing things, I guess. A little sketchy about just doing it, instead of thinking it over. But, these $300 paychecks definitely aren't cutting it. It never will. I have so much things I want to do/see, so much plans for myself & Janel. I'll never understand why money is the root of it all. I guess, it doesn't have to be the root of it all, but I can't think of anything else, or another way to begin. Stressful moments. Lately, I've just been feeling tired. It's been an exhausting week for some reason. But, I get paid tomorrow at midnight. I know I have to go find a blazer somewhere. Saving money has been real hard for some reason. Payday just came too slow. I definitely am buying film this paycheck though. I've been waiting on a Canon scanner that I won on eBay (finally won a bid!). Should be legit! So, I'm stoked for that.

But, I don't know. It's just been a very, very stressful few weeks. Money has been a problem & I don't know why. Change.