Take Some Time To Think...

Lately, I've been wondering how my Grandpa is doing. I swear, I catch whiffs of him once in a while, but nothing to see when I look around. I miss him. Then, it always leads me to thinking about change, life, & growing up. My mom showed me my grandparent's house last night on the internet. It's up for sale. Whoever is next to live in it, they're one lucky family. It's a beautiful place. It's only natural to feel like half my childhood is still lingering in there. Sometimes, I wonder if my grandpa is till hanging out there. I know that was his dream, but he lived a very fulfilling life, I'm sure of it. Just thinking about growth, & taking the time to see where things/people are at right now. My grandma & uncle is in Canada, everyone is scattered all around the United States. I feel like I'll never see my grandma again. None of us has a "summer getaway" anymore. I don't see my brother. I don't know. It's just weird & depressing, I guess. I'm trying to channel all of that & use it to get on my future, but it's hard. I think a lot, & I know that I see things different than others. I portray things differently.